Last weekend we looked at pictures from Timothy's birth and NICU stay. It is amazing how God's plan for Timothy has unfolded, how far he has come, and how God has already used him to change our hearts and bring glory to Himself. We chose his name, Timothy, because it meant "honoring God." We chose it before we knew anything about his lymphatic malformation and all that it would bring. We chose it because God chose it first.
Recently I have been asking myself: Do I truly want to grow in Christ more than I want to have a comfortable life? Hebrews 5:8 says that Christ learned obedience from what he suffered. Is it more important to me to learn obedience through this suffering God has allowed our family to endure? If it could all go away tomorrow, would I miss this opportunity God has given me to grow? James says to count it all joy whenever we face various trials, knowing that the testing of our faith produces endurance. Do I really want the things that are eternal, or do I prefer the comforts of this world? Am I willing to depend on others? Am I content with sacrificing my independence? Philippians says that Jesus became obedient to the point of death. Do I share the same level of commitment?
Tears in my eyes as I read down through your posts.
ReplyDeleteThere are very few women in this world that share our story. I can't tell you how much peace it brings me to see your words on paper telling your story how Christ has used Timothy to bring you closer to Him. The biggest question is the one you asked, "Do I truly want to grow in Christ more than I want to have a comfortable life?" The answer is simple at first glance, of course is the former, but we know its just not that simple.
I feel so blessed to have met you Suzanne and blessed that we are sharing in this scary journey together. And knowing that Christ will be glorified through all of it. And that we will come to know Him with greater intimacy than we can imagine.