Romans 9:20, "Will the thing formed say to him who formed it, 'Why have you made me like this?'" The artist stands at his easel, a vision of perfection in his mind's eye. Stroke by stroke, he brings his idea to life. Steadily, painstakingly, a work of beauty emerges with each purposeful detail. Finished, he sets down his brush. Surprisingly, his tool is worn, mangled, deformed, misshapen. Amidst many others more pleasing to the eye, he chose this one for its particular usefulness. And he stands back with delight, saying, "It is good."
In my son, the world sees disability, but the Lord, opportunity. God's economy runs contrary to ours; He delights to use His weakest vessel so that all credit may return to Him. Greater brokenness not only fails to hinder Him, it indeed even multiplies His glory, leaving his instrument to stand back and marvel.
Timothy, as long as you view your flesh as belonging to you for your own pleasure, you forfeit the blessing of God. Instead, you must learn to embrace God's purpose in creating you as He did. Consider yourself God's slave; desire to be fully His instrument; come not to be served, but to serve. Steward your body as you would the borrowed property of a King. When your suffering seems great, consider the agony of the crucified Christ. Offer your broken waterpot to God, and He will take it and shine His light through its cracks. Delight in the depth of your weakness and you will uncover a bottomless, flowing well of infinite joy. "My strength is made perfect in weakness," said the Lord, and Paul replied, "Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities... for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong." It is natural to question God, but always let your doubt be turned to trust as you rest in His grace and expectantly watch for His work through you. Place yourself freely in His hands and allow Him to use you howsoever He wills. He is the master artist, and His final work is always good.
Rom 12:1-2
"I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God."
